Apologies to those who have been on the receiving end of my depression.
Anyways, a definite improvement in my mood has been noticed. :) I'm quite alright now. I have these pangs once in a while, of course, but they go away eventually. Eventually.
Lan Xin sent me the recording of our Yiddish Dances performance during Speech Day earlier today. There were a few times that the band was not in timing, but definitely better than the Yuhua one. It was way clearer, too.

Last Friday, Mr Ito, the Japanese conductor, came. We played Sunrise the entire time in the hall. He's really funny, and although there was the language barrier because he spoke very little English, we managed to understand. Mrs Ou Yang came in around the last hour or half-hour of our session with Mr Ito. Like, for me, it was really pressurising, because it's been 11 years of silver and all, and Mr Ito's plane tickets had to be paid and all.
And I hope I've improved! But I know I still have room for improvement, and I need to be more accurate when I hit the cymbal. But anyway, Mr Ito says that we need to work on our projection. So we'll be practising in open spaces soon. We're too used to the band room, our comfort zone, I guess.
Well. At least I'm still in SYF, right? :) Oh, and last night (Friday night) I dreamnt that we got 87 for SYF. Which is a Gold. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh how badly we all want the GOLD....... And only twelve more days. Ahhh!!!! Jiayou band! Wouldn't it be awesome to be the batch that got the Gold after 11 years? Not only for the school, but also for US?
I'd do anything to relive the legacy of CSB in 1996.

Now, on to other matters! For the life of Sya does not end there! Her life hath many, many problems in the area of relationships too! Onward, brave lads!

I feel like my relationship with some of my closest friends ever are really strained. It's like they're all hanging by some thin thread just threatening to break, you know? I really miss them, but we're all so busy that we forget to remember each other. Sigh. I thought secrets were non-existent between us all, but I guess I was wrong after all. I don't know if I should give up on our relationship or work harder than ever at it. But if I have to work to make sure it survives, then doesn't that mean that we're not meant to be together (no, not in that sense) after all? :S I'm just so confused, I don't know what I should do.
Some sisterly bonding would do me some good. ((: I'm going out with my sis tomorrow, but destination is currently undecided.
Well. Nothing to say anymore. 'Cept that some people have been less than happy with me, is all. And I sincerely, sincerely think that it isn't my fault that the 'some people' have been that way.
You claim to be fine but it doesn't seem so to me.