Introduction
Can we ever really know someone?
Can we ever really know someone?
Profile
HELLO THERE. I'M A GIRL!
But I could also be lying. xD
Yum apple donuts yum.
I LOVE MCFLY AND DAVID AND THE HARRY POTTER BOOKS AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO SAY IT.
Lately I've been rather content and positive (which is rare) and generally excited about life.
Sometimes I'm weird and retarded and I don't know what I'm saying/doing.
In the words of Harry (Judd, not Potter) - I want to kiss you all...
misc
The celebration of my birth is over. ):
"What do I want? Single spotlight."
xP.
- Gossip Girl Season 2
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- A huge stuffed lion.
- Glee Official Soundtrack!
- McFly - Room on the Third Floor
- McFly - Wonderland
- McFly - Motion in the Ocean
- My Best Friend's Girl by Dorothy Koomson
- The Chocolate Run by Dorothy Koomson
- To write many, many books and be successful.
- To fly to England and
1) Attend a McFly concert in the mosh pit.
2) Watch a Man Utd match at Old Trafford.
3) Meet J.K Rowling!
That is all. :D
Tagboard
Depression.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007 @ 12:02 PM
Hey.
I know I said I wouldn't post anymore, but I find that blogging helps me to vent my feelings. And I'm currently feeling depressed.
You know that line, "Everyone is good at something" ?
I used to believe in that line.
But now I don't.
I've been checking out the fanfics on Fanfiction.Net recently, to get some ideas for our new fanfic (Pat, Jac's and mine). But the thing is, reading these fics, I realize that compared to these people, I can't write at all. In fact, compared to these people, I really suck. So I began to think about other areas in which I've always had a passion for.
I thought about my drumming. I tried to play along with the drums in some songs on my playlist, but find that I can't. I can't play. And whenever Lan Xin or Angeline gives Arina some new score to try out on the drumset, she can play whatever it is upon looking at it.
And my strokes are uneven and my rolling's terrible, as stated in the post before the last.
More evidence? The recent performance at ECP.
Well, at least now I know I won't make a good drummer.
All this while, I've been of average skill or talent when carrying out my hobbies, and I thought that was good. But now I realize that that means I'm a Jack of all trades. Well, except for dancing, which I know I can't do at all.
Basically, I love to sing, drum and write stories, and I can, but not very well. I can hear Steph's voice ringing in my head: "It's not whether you want to or not, it's whether you can or not."
Oh, and hey, I'm not even smart or possess any leadership qualities to make up for my lack of talent in the creative/aesthetics department.
Oh yeah, and to top it all off, I'm not even rich or remotely pretty/pleasing to the eyes.
When it comes to this, it's either my talents are screaming in my face, but I'm blind and have no confidence in myself, I really have no talents at all, or I just haven't found mine yet.
I know what you're thinking. It's just the same old issue again, isn't it? That I have no confidence in myself (oh yeah, that's another one. Just lengthen the stupid list of things I can't do, why don't you?)? Well, if that's true, then how come I really can't do all those things mentioned above?
Please, someone, give me an answer before I go crazy.
I'm getting sucked into the world of depression and before long, you won't be able to pull me out. No one will.
And I can't believe I'm saying this, but I think your effects are finally beginning to wear off on me after all these years. - That shall be my line for the day.