I was just thinking..
What if I die? I mean, of course I'm going to die. We all will. But.. how? When? Where? What would be the cause?

Only God knows.
The thing is, I have this pain on the left side of my body, near my stomach area. And my mum says there's this illness called appendicitis (which we did for sec 2 OAC assignment. Remember?), which could be fatal.
I went and looked for my Sec 2 OAC assignment, but I guess my summary sucks, because the only new piece of information I found out was that there is no known way to prevent appendicitis. I still don't know where the appendix is. Is it the left or the right? I even looked through my sec 2 Science textbook.
Call me kiasu, I know.

Well, I don't wanna die just yet! People always say I'm suicidal, but I know that deep down, I'm not. Well, I don't wanna die from an illness, at least.

Anyway, I looked up the word appendix in the dictionary and it says that the appendix has no real use in the human body, or something along those lines.
GAH! What's the use of having an appendix, THEN? I mean, if the only thing it does is cause a higher probability of death. Because when the appendix gets blocked, due to various reasons, bacteria begin to invade the wall of the appendix. Which then leads to inflammation of the appendix, because the body responds to the bacteria by launching an attack on it, called inflammation. And then the appendix RUPTURES! Subsequently, the bacteria begins to invade the abdomen.
Now, read this:

Given the appendix's propensity to cause death via infection, and the seeming perfect health of those who have had their appendix removed, the biological purpose of the appendix has mystified biologists for some time. There have been cases of people who have been found, usually on laparoscopy or laparotomy to have a congenital absence of their appendix. There have been no reports of impaired immune or gastrointestinal function in these people.

This was taken from Wikipedia. Copyright, y'know.
So basically, the appendix has no real use in the body. Like I said, then what's it there for?? >=(

A symptom of appendicitis, besides pain in the abdomen:

A second, common, early symptom of appendicitis is loss of appetite which may progress to nausea and even vomiting. Nausea and vomiting also may occur later due to intestinal obstruction.

Yes, yes, copyright. Taken from:
http://www.medicinenet.com

And guess what? My appetite has recently become smaller. Like, for almost a month.
Ironically, I thought it was a good thing that I ate less. So I can lose weight.

Okay, I found out that the appendix is on the right side. But wait a second!

In rare individuals with situs inversus, the appendix may be located in the lower left side. (taken from Wikipedia)
Ahem.
I could be a rare case.

I'm going to die.

Hmmm. What would happen if I died? Would anybody miss me at all? Would my family truly be sad? How long would they mourn? How about my friends? Would anyone even care? Would anyone come to my funeral? Would any of my friends shed a tear for me? What would they remember me as? What was the last thought they had of me? Had I been a good friend?

:

Wow. I never knew I could ask so many questions.
And no answers... :

I wonder if my close friends will be sad. Or maybe there'll be people in 2/O or in band that were happy to see me go.
If it's meant to be, it's meant to be, right?

If I had cancer, and it was confirmed that I was going to die, I know exactly what I'd do. Oh yeah, appendicitis could lead to cancer, I think. The suspicion of cancer is raised after the patient's been treated, if I'm not mistaken.

Well, if I die early, you people know I love y'all. *goes all sentimental and dabs eyes with handkerchief*

Farewell.